Who the hell is Frank Allen and why is he writing a blog?

I mean this isn’t the 90’s for goodness sake!

You don’t need a weatherman to know which way the wind blows.

— Bob Dylan

I imagine that WordPress on January 1st each year is much like any gym on that date; well-intentioned people trying to improve themselves by starting something new. I also imagine the results are the same; the usual diehard people are the only ones still around in February.

I have started and forgotten about a lot of blogs over the years. Will this attempt be different? It has to be! My life depends on it!

Ok, a little dramatic. I do have some pretty serious problems that I think blogging might help me control and maybe even overcome.

Physically, I have a raging case of Diabetes (Type 2, judge away!). I made great strides in getting it under control in 2019 and, I’m hoping, with the extra day in 2020, I’ll do even better. I went from an A1C of close to 11 to 6.2 at my last blood test and I lost 40 pounds. Over the holidays that just passed I definitely managed to put a few back on but I’m not going to step on the scale till next week after I’ve eaten normally for a few days so that I don’t trigger my other thing….

Mentally, I’m pretty depressed. I wouldn’t say I am “crippled” with depression…although it does feel that way sometimes…but it definitely gets in my way often. At particularly tough periods I’ve had some suicidal thoughts but, honestly, I recognize that my life is pretty good and I don’t want to do that to my wife and kids and anyone else that might be affected by that particular act due to their proximity to me.

I read a lot. The year ending yesterday I completed 69 books (thank you Goodreads for keeping track of such things). Each year for the past couple of years I’ve set a goal of 52 books to read for the year and I haven’t missed it yet.

I do the New York Times crossword everyday. I currently have a streak of 710 days in progress. I’m not particularly smart, there are tricks involved in completing even the hardest puzzle and if you do enough of them you learn those tricks. Free hint; if the clue has something to do with a cookie the answer is most likely OREO.

Frank Allen is not my real name but everything I’ve mentioned in this post is true. I think the pseudonym will allow me to post the truth about myself no matter how icky it might be and I think letting people (even strangers) know my dark side as well as my light side will be beneficial to me. I’m not a serial killer or anything there are just things about me that I don’t or can’t share with people in my life, I’m sure whosoever has read this far understands what I mean…like that suicide thing a couple of paragraphs up…I’ve never expressed that to anyone. Also, I’m starting therapy next week, that should be fun to write about.

See you tomorrow and, hopefully, well into February and beyond!

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